accidentally doing coke...

[jokerthief]

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First to say that smoking tobacco is not a drug is kind of silly.

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You are probably correct. He really wasn't talking about tobacco though and neither was I (notice the "" marks). My point is that powder drugs can destroy your life FAST. Drinking, smoking weed, and especially tobacco does the job slowly. That is all I was trying to convey.

BTW, good job in breaking the cycle while your only problems were monetary. Many people look down on someone like yourself, but I see you for what you are -- a very resilient individual. To take a good taste and walk away before any real consequences require a strength of character that few possess.

[craig r]

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First to say that smoking tobacco is not a drug is kind of silly.

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You are probably correct. He really wasn't talking about tobacco though and neither was I (notice the "" marks). My point is that powder drugs can destroy your life FAST. Drinking, smoking weed, and especially tobacco does the job slowly. That is all I was trying to convey.

BTW, good job in breaking the cycle while your only problems were monetary. Many people look down on someone like yourself, but I see you for what you are -- a very resilient individual. To take a good taste and walk away before any real consequences require a strength of character that few possess.

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Thank you very much for your support. It actually was harder than quitting smoking when I quit for a year and then cracked when I started coke. I mean why not smoke if you care doing cocaine. What is actually weird about me quitting was that I wasn't at that unhappy stage. I just didn't want to get a part time night job (since I already have a dream job at home; i.e. coke dealer..just kidding). It is amazing how quickly your tolerance grows to that stuff.

Cocaine is weird chemically, because it really isn't the coke that gets you high, it just releases your dopamines. Well, your body is very stingy with how often it releases these. And cocaine releases these very quickly. the problem is that your body doesn't produce dopamines as quickly as it releases them. That is why if you keep doing coke for 24 hours straight, you won't get high. Once the dopamines are gone that is it. You will just have the side effects of sleeplessnes, etc...Of course you will keep trying anyways.

Once you completely quit, it is not physically addictive. The only time you have to detox is when you are an alcoholic (I dont drink at all, I don't like it for some reason). So, other than the minor stress headache, it is all mental. But, to be honest it was very tough. Even though I only did it for 4 months, I was told it would take up to 6-12 months before my dopamine levels were back to normal. I didn't do the coke that long, but I was doing at least 10 eight balls a week. And, suppossedely, just like with any addiction, I will always be addicted and sometimes crave it more than others. But, the first month was the toughest. I was horribly depressed. Nothing would get me excited or happy (minimal dopamines). Okay, I will end that rant now, I just wanted people that are doing that stuff to know that you can quit. I have the perfect personality for that stuff, semi manic, anxious, and very addictive mind.

Also, for those that are doing it still and are running low on funds, the next step will be crack. And to me, once you hit the crack level you are finished. Yes, it is a little cheaper, but every hit is just like the last; ie. to make y ou feel normal.

One real positive thing that I can say I got out of this was compassion for addicts of all kinds. Because they are all really the same. One of my friends said, I don't have to go to cocaine anonymous, I could go t any of the anonymour meetings. Because an addiction is an addiction. Whether that be coke, smack, food, or alcohol. The compassion that I learned was that addicts are basically like dogs, in a constant state of longing, becuase they want the high to last forever, but like everything else it goes away.

craig