I'm an idiot

[einbert]

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Like I said, I'm an idiot. Maybe this post will shame me into not being a complete idiot. Probably not, but it's worth a shot.

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Shame is destructive, not constructive.

Guilt, however, can be productive. But tormenting yourself over something you cannot control (your past self) only serves to create more shame.

Inconsistencies, mistakes, and imperfect memories are obstacles that we humans will have to face for the rest of our lives. You will make mistakes in poker, mainly because it is not an easy or simple game. Playing perfect poker is a ridiculous goal because it is one that we will never achieve. But it certainly sounds like you are learning from your mistakes. If you keep going in that direction and learn to accept your imperfection as a poker player rather than beat yourself up for it, I think you'll be pleased with the results.

Good luck.