I have decided to throw up on OOT(long psychobabble)

So Ive been thinking a lot about religion lately.first, I need to tell you about my conversation with my mom and my dad and why I have a subconcious desire to beat my dad in the game of life. my views on religion have changed over time. Of course at the age of 8 (and before) I completely believed in the christian god and jesus.Although when i was two im not sure i knew who jesus was.Then i started questioning things and I became an athiest, as all questioning people do at one point or another. To compensate for my lack of friends in middle school, I became a stoner and made a number of interesting and odd stoner friends, and some that were not so interesting.i listened to rap music, put spinners on my ford(sad but true), and made it my personal goal to kill anyone who got in my way and to f hoes.Then one day around the age of 16, i realized that i was not black and became a part of the other stoner crowd, the artsy, emo kids. I threw out dr. dre and bought taking back sunday, thrice, and dashboard confessional CD's.I became a true believer in buddhism. buddhism did not contain blatent contradictions like the bible and meditation and zen were cool, not that meditation still isnt cool. Then i realized that the leaders of buddhism have many faults as well and that ALL religion is BS led by Bsers and lambs. Then i became a devout christian.For a little while.... The point is I have never really been religious or believed in any one religion. I fell into the category of people who believe in a mixture of religions. I believe in evolution. I believed Jesus was the son of god. I believed in karma and deep visualization.

So anyway last night I had a conversation with my folks.My mom is a nut. My dad is very sane and is a genius.This is true by the way, he is quite a respected scientist, although now he is becoming more a businessman.I believe my sister, who is an all A student and very active got her genes from Dad and I got my genes from mom.Anyway, I asked my mom about noah's ark and got a response that was nutty. she said that she didnt know whether it happened or not, but it probably did. When I gave her my thoughts about how there is no logical signs that a worldwide flood occurred, it is impossible to load all the earth's specieson a 400 ft wooden boat, etc.she said that there are many dimensions and it was probably true in a different dimension. then she changed the subject. since the bird flu was on Tv, she(shes a vegetarian) explained to me how it was gods way of punishing meat eaters...so like I said, a total nut. So my dad came downstairs and I had to ask him to say some things about Noah's ark, since my mom was driving me crazy with her parrallel universe, vengeful chicken theories and my dad would give a rational opinion. but my dad talked down to me. He goes on lots of trips and I realize that i am his crazy son he sees often. he talked down to me because he would not answer and would prefer I beleive in Christianity because he probably thinks I would be less destructive that way. He avoided the question. After prodding, he said i certainly wish noah hadnt brought two misquitoes.but i persisted. So he told me that he thought i was missing the point of religion and that I was bieng arrogant in thinking I knew judeo-christian philosophy. But i can tell the real answer is NO. Which is why i have a subconcious need to beat my dad, so he will stop talking down to me. I must be more successful than him...I have to post my religious thoughts here because, as you can see my parents are no fun to talk about religion with, my extended family is all strict fundamentalist chrstian, andmy girfriend is a cute asian girl who considers religion a non issue.Dont worry the rambling continues and the grammer gets worse.....