I am scared of succeeding

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I don't think I would be able to live comfortably in the area you suggested and I have been exposed to law all my life. I feel I excel best in areas that don't require extensive mathematics (Cal 2 or whatnot).

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I am going to school to become a lawyer.

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Why? Are you sure this is what you want to do?

I ask because I am a lawyer, and if I had it to do over again I most certainly would not be. I pretty much hate it.

Why don't you just go the computer/IT route?

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I guess if your dad is a lawyer then you have a decent idea of what it's like.

For me, I get paid very well, but I find this comes at the *expense* of living comfortably... meaning, excellent salary, but the stress and the hours, in my mind, are not a great trade-off. I've gained about 15 pounds just in the last year because I don't have enough time to exercise and take care of myself like I always used to prior to my professinal life. I'd rather have a lower paying, less stress, 40 hour week job.

I, too, always thought I was better in the "verbal" area-- reasoning, writing, etc. Thing was, compared to most people, I was good at math also, just not as good when compared to my other areas of strength. I'd much rather be using those kind of skills now, though, to earn my living.

As a matter of fact, my long-range goal is to leave the legal field in a couple years depending on how fast I can build up the 'capital' to do so... even despite all my time already invested in it.

Anyway, this is just one testimonial, for whatever it is worth. Hopefully your dad can hook you up with a cush job if you do go the legal route.

[AceofSpades]

Are you really sure you are scared of succeeding?

Is it possible that you are scared of failing when you do everything you can to succeed? That you couldn't accept the pain when your best isn't enough?

So you create self-blocking/destructive patterns and give yourself an excuse so "failure" would not be totally devastating?

.joseph

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Are you really sure you are scared of succeeding?

Is it possible that you are scared of failing when you do everything you can to succeed? That you couldn't accept the pain when your best isn't enough?

So you create self-blocking/destructive patterns and give yourself an excuse so "failure" would not be totally devastating?

.joseph

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I really like how you worded that ... hmm

first off, everyone and i mean everyone (unless you physically hit, or berated your teacher) got all A's until junior high.
the reason you didn't do as well in middle school is you did the same amount of work, only more was required to maintain the same result.

the reason you went out partying is because your priorities are not straight,
SO IN THE END, you would much rather be in the here and the now, yes you know whats right, and in ur heart u know its wrong to go and party before a big test but the reason you do is although u want to and can "talk the talk" you lack the drive and motivation to "walk the walk"

and on top of that you being afraid of success is delusional horshit, i think you feel you are very smart, but are just plain old LAZY, and u want the easy way out, that is why you play poker, but incase you didnt realise yet, playing poker is no easy way out.

[jjacky]

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first off, everyone and i mean everyone (unless you physically hit, or berated your teacher) got all A's until junior high.
the reason you didn't do as well in middle school is you did the same amount of work, only more was required to maintain the same result.

the reason you went out partying is because your priorities are not straight,
SO IN THE END, you would much rather be in the here and the now, yes you know whats right, and in ur heart u know its wrong to go and party before a big test but the reason you do is although u want to and can "talk the talk" you lack the drive and motivation to "walk the walk"

and on top of that you being afraid of success is delusional horshit, i think you feel you are very smart, but are just plain old LAZY, and u want the easy way out, that is why you play poker, but incase you didnt realise yet, playing poker is no easy way out.

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i think you are very very wrong (maybe he is lazy, but that's not the problem).

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first off, everyone and i mean everyone (unless you physically hit, or berated your teacher) got all A's until junior high.

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Perhaps you went to a school district where this was the case, but this is not a true statement by any means.

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I'm a lazy-ass procrastinator too, I work best under extreme pressure and will blow things off by partying too hard the night before so as not to perform well. One insightful boss I had told me I had a "Fear of completion." He gave me a motivational book that I ignored/procrastinated. Too bad, that.

i admire your bravery in posting this one.

[winky51]

Perhaps you are scared to succeed because when you get to the top there is no where to go but down. Due to your father's reactions when you were younger I feel thats what you expect. That when you do succeed in whatever it is you do that somewhere at the top you will make a mistake and get chastised for it by a parent, lover, friend, public. Are you too hard on yourself when you don't succeed?

Not my place to say but getting a "B" on a report card is a good thing. My parents just told me to graduate even if I got "C"s. Your father just wanted to make sure you were not a loser in life and he pushed a little hard. I think your fear is that you don't want to dissapoint when at the top. If you keep striving for a higher goal and take the small steps there then you can still improve.

As for fixing it, well not sure there. Childhood embedded personality traits are hard to overcome. Maybe your most fullfilling thing you can do in life is to teach others to succeed instead of trying to become something larger than life. Take your problem and refocus it to something else positive like helping others.

When I was young, Kindergarden to 11th grade, I was made fun because of certain physical attributes. I never had real friends till I was in college. Normally that makes someone become anti-social and an introvert. When I hit college I changed the way I looked at life, with a little help from someone else. I instead was now protecting those that were made fun of and selecting good people to be part of my life. "If you didn't like me then FU I don't need you. If you F with my friend you're F'ing with me". I stood up for the underdog, the weaker person, confronted the jackass, and helped those in need. It felt good to help others that I saw in my position when I was young. I becamse the good person I thought all men should be and an extrovert. I took my weakness and turned it into an attribute that made me feel good and gave me confidence.

Take what you fear and help someone else overcome it.