I refused to have a losing session. (NC/progress thread)

[baronzeus]

A month or so ago I made a post about how I couldn't handle losing 50 or 60BBs to start off a session. I'm the type of player who loses a ton of money when I tilt, which is most definitely my number one leak.

Today, after a brief coaching session by ALL1N (who I highly recommend), I sat down at 4 3/6 6max tables at about 12:30 EST. I was feeling really good about myself and fairly confident after ALL1N's thoughts and ideas.

Too bad. Within minutes I was already down a ton.

At first I was pissed. Suckout after suckout, and it wasn't getting better. So I did what I normally do when people suckout on me: see too many showdowns and try fancy bullshit . That only made it worse for me, and it led to the peak of the valley.

About 10 minutes into my downswing I noticed I was sitting with Joetall and popped up AIM to talk to him. He told me to sit at his other table too, since there was a known donator. I wasn't sure if it was such a good idea, and I told him I was stuck badly already. Joetall advised me tu turn off chat and just get over it. "Tilt is the number one leak". You can lose a ton of money to tilt, he told me. Just know that you have an edge over your opponents and keep playing your game.

After a while Joetall left and about 1/3 of the way through my session I talked to aK13, who happens to be a good friend of mine. I bitched to him a little (what else can you do: sorry Adam) and he said "Poker sucks" or something. More suckouts, and now I was down almost 50BB. I said "[censored], what am I supposed to do?" He might have suggested taking a break, or that may have been my own brain going berserk from the ridiculous session I'd had so far, but who knows.

After thinking about quitting when I was down around 45BBs for a few minutes, I sat back into the tables and determined that I would not leave until I was satisfied with my session, especially with all these donators sitting together. The one good player at my table (named "shipip04", probably a 2p2er, if that's you you are a good player but too tight IMO), was making a ton, and if he had a huge edge, so did I. So I sat back in at about 1:30 AM and got to work. Surprisingly, although my graph sucked, I was doing OK for the last half of the session. Things kept getting better, although the occasional 15BB suckout was killer to my goal of leaving the session without being down.

Anyways, at long last things turned around:



and while it was still technically a losing session, I am happy with myself almost breaking even after such a rocky start. There is no way I would have the ability to do something like this a month ago or probably even a week ago. I can only thank the constant support of you all, the wise words of ALL1N, and Joetall's support.

OK, I'll stop rambling now, if you're ultra bored, thanks for reading.

Anyhow, here is a picture of my stats for the session.



The fact that I was running this bad (low VPIP (average 25), low PFR (average 17), low won@sd etc) and didn't lose makes me extremely happy, and has a very good outlook for the improvement i've made.


This 3 hour session was also a marathon for me. Probably my longest ever in my 3 month career. Thanks all. Gnight.