No longer playing to win

[Sabrazack]

I have been hit by neg variance before, i started doubting my play and felt generally shitty. This time i was prepared, or so i thought. Im currently breakeven over the last 600 or so tournaments, before that i had a ROI of 15% over 2000 tours.

As earlier posters have said it just feels like i can't win anything, i expect my AJ to lose to AT more often than i win, simply because that is what has happened more often than not lately.

Anyway, my main concern is that it no longer feels like i am playing to win the tournaments i participate in. I simply play my best game and expect to get sucked out on. Bad beats no longer bother me at all, since they happen all the time. I no longer have the goal of winning $$ when i play, my only goal is to play my daily quota of tournaments and try not to lose my bankroll.

I wonder if this is good or bad, i mean, not getting upset over bad beats is probably good. But im afraid its affecting my game somehow.. Anyway, this was a very pointless post. I guess i just needed to something else to do than play poker as im finishing off my last tournament.

Wow, just pushed into queens from the SB with my 77, time to go watch TV.