i m a pathetic gambling addict- self motivation purpose

[vexvelour]

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dont like drugs

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I don't understand this statement.

[idrinkcoors]

I am naive when it comes to determing troll posts, but here goes anyways:

First off, stop playing. If you were serious about wanting to kill yourself after a big loss, then stop it. You already proved you can go 3 months without poker.

Secondly, if you ignore the first part above, at least disable blackjack from the party screen. It's not too hard to disconnect it. Same with the color bets.

Third: set absolute limits. Write them down and keep them in front of you. I WILL STOP AT $100 PROFIT. (for example), then withdrawl one hundred and pay your buddy back.

Good luck to you.

[Tommy Angelo]

"i m sick of how pathetic i am."

You are not pathetic. You are an addict. Addicts have cravings. That's what we do. It's normal. It's expected. We have a variety of things we reach for to satisfy our cravings. Gambling is one of them. So is playing the guitar. Try to reach for different things. Sometimes reach for nothing. There are two ways to make a craving go away. One is to reach for something. The other is to wait it out, which sometimes only requires seconds. Either way, whether your reach or wait, the craving goes away. And then there will be another, and another, for the rest of your life, because you are not pathetic, you are an addict. And that's okay. You are part of a group that includes some fantastically great and respected humans.

"i want to overcome myself."

You will never wake up one day and pleasantly discover that you have all of a sudden overcome yourself. Meanwhile, use band-aids, employ whatever ingenious methods you can devise, to make your self-destructive lashings occur less often, and less severely. And at the same time, redirect them, one craving at a time. Walking is good.

"i can never quit when i m ahead, ..."

Just try it, one time.

"i was ashamed. i should be ashamed, i am pathetic!"

Addiction begets shamelessness and that's a good thing. If you are going to be pathetic, and call yourself pathetic, then do it man, be as pathetic as you can be and wallow in it. Then step back and look at the whole mess and be shameless about it all. Now you're getting somewhere.


Tommy

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"i can never quit when i m ahead, ..."

Just do it, one time.

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FYP

[felix83]

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i think, if i can ever grown of this, i will not only be a great poker player, but i will be a great person, so i have to overcome this shadow.

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It's not going to matter if you're the greatest player in the world, because you're an addict and will find a way to lose it. Stop playing forever (not a break for a couple months) and get help, or look forward to a life of debt and loneliness.

[marsvolta619]

At least you don't have 6 grand on a credit card

[Harv72b]

Link.

Seriously.

You may be the best technical poker player in the history of the game. But if you can't beat yourself, you'll never beat poker.

[wutevahung]

thank you for the meaningful post.

"You are part of a group that includes some fantastically great and respected humans." that made me feel a lot better.

ya i dont just play poker, even though i made it sound like i juss sit in front of the computer al day, but i actaully take time out to practice guitar (juss started), play video games, basketball and work out everyday.

but yes it is still influencing my life.
i will try to quit when i m ahead.

[wutevahung]

i actaully do, but fortunally, something wrong with my PP account so i cant cash in directly ahha

[wutevahung]

thanks for the link.

agree with the statement. that is why i said i m a bad poker player. blah.