Poker is rigged

U wouldn't believ how huge the downswings can be before you face one. I know this guy who went on a 700 BB downswing playing the highest online games, I thought he was playing bad or on tilt.
Now i'm facing something like that myself. I thought it was just that one new site I played at, but now I lose at every site and limit. Every single session.
600 BB within 3 weeks and counting. I don't know what i'm doing different then in past. Maybe I was just "Lycky".

Now if I start session winning I wanna quit but the other me says lets continue and run this win to big one. Then within a hour im down 50BB. And wanna kill my opponents.
I doubt i'm playing optimally, but have to get up from here.

Only difference to past is I have done pretty much drugs lately and these seem to make me easilly nervous and frustrated. But at the same time they give the feeling I'm just unlucky and the best player in world.