Give me a clue about variance

[stokken]

I have no less the 31 registrered tournaments in sucsession where I have been 70% favourite or better to win the showdown on flopp and hence gotten all my chips in the middle and been called with not one showdown won. And in 28 of the cases it was HU

I am rapidly loosing faith and all kinds of crap thoughts are creeping into my mind

I feel physically ill, and this is not bs post I need someone to elaborate on variance please.

Best regards Stokken