the downswing, in 3 phases so far....

[meow_meow]

I play 5-10 6max.
In august, I was DERB. 4.5BB/100 over 20k hands.
In september, I can't win. Currently down 230BB over the last 10k hands. My stats are the same, though there has been some tilt.

Stage 1: "it's just variance". I repeat this mantra ad nauseum. I'm relaxed. Suckouts happen, no big deal. It's all good.

Stage 2: Anger. Here comes the tilt. Now, when I get sucked out on I feel like punching the wall. Sometimes I do. I decide to 8 table 6max for a bit. That didn't work out at all.

Stage 3: acceptance. Losing is my natural state. It seems normal. I refocus on playing good, but when I look at how I'm doing on the day I'm surprised to see I'm down 70BB in just 800 hands. It doesn't feel like I'm doing that badly, because I'm expecting to lose now. Downswing at 259BB and counting.....