How to Win and Lose 40k in 2 weeks

Oh I know, I didn't start with 5k at the 30, I started 6-8 tabling at the 10/20 (which still isn't really enough) and after two nights had doubled up and then slowly worked my way to the 30 again. That climb up is the rough part but I've had about a week to reflect and kick myself about 5000 times over my stupidity and I'm ready to start that climb up again. I removed the blackjack icons from the interface but even if they were there, I want to be able to ask myself why would I play a game called 'Give party your money' and not even bother opening it up.