i m a pathetic gambling addict- self motivation purpose

[SNOWBALL138]

I recommend talking to your parents, and getting them to hire a therapist for you. You might be surprised by how much it can help.

[Tommy Angelo]

"i m sick of how pathetic i am."

You are not pathetic. You are an addict. Addicts have cravings. That's what we do. It's normal. It's expected. We have a variety of things we reach for to satisfy our cravings. Gambling is one of them. So is playing the guitar. Try to reach for different things. Sometimes reach for nothing. There are two ways to make a craving go away. One is to reach for something. The other is to wait it out, which sometimes only requires seconds. Either way, whether your reach or wait, the craving goes away. And then there will be another, and another, for the rest of your life, because you are not pathetic, you are an addict. And that's okay. You are part of a group that includes some fantastically great and respected humans.

"i want to overcome myself."

You will never wake up one day and pleasantly discover that you have all of a sudden overcome yourself. Meanwhile, use band-aids, employ whatever ingenious methods you can devise, to make your self-destructive lashings occur less often, and less severely. And at the same time, redirect them, one craving at a time. Walking is good.

"i can never quit when i m ahead, ..."

Just try it, one time.

"i was ashamed. i should be ashamed, i am pathetic!"

Addiction begets shamelessness and that's a good thing. If you are going to be pathetic, and call yourself pathetic, then do it man, be as pathetic as you can be and wallow in it. Then step back and look at the whole mess and be shameless about it all. Now you're getting somewhere.


Tommy

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"i can never quit when i m ahead, ..."

Just do it, one time.

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FYP

[wutevahung]

thank you for the meaningful post.

"You are part of a group that includes some fantastically great and respected humans." that made me feel a lot better.

ya i dont just play poker, even though i made it sound like i juss sit in front of the computer al day, but i actaully take time out to practice guitar (juss started), play video games, basketball and work out everyday.

but yes it is still influencing my life.
i will try to quit when i m ahead.

[Alex/Mugaaz]

Why play poker? It's completely ruining your life. There are TONS of ways to make money in this world, even if I was supremely gifted at something I wouldn't keep doing it if everytime it ended in disaster. Just quit, there is no rainbow at the end of poker, there is no glory when you get to a certain level. Poker is the same at high stakes as it is at low stakes - people trying to get each others money.

Why do people like yourself keep banging your head against wall with poker? As Jeffage said before how good you are really doesn't make a lick of difference. Why bash your ahead over and over again? There is no goldmine at the end of poker, there is no glory in it.

Why not stop wasting your time and throw your compulsions into something worthwhile? Why not get addicted to playing the guitar, or cooking in a soup kitchen, or just damn near anything else.


I think poker is a complete waste of time for anyone who doesn't find it somewhat easy and has no emotional compulsions related with gambling etc. Even for them poker is just a source of income, nothing else. Stop wasting your time trying to suceed at poker. You want to overcome a huge personal demon JUST so you can win a little money at poker? That's such a waste.

[felix83]

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i think, if i can ever grown of this, i will not only be a great poker player, but i will be a great person, so i have to overcome this shadow.

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It's not going to matter if you're the greatest player in the world, because you're an addict and will find a way to lose it. Stop playing forever (not a break for a couple months) and get help, or look forward to a life of debt and loneliness.

[marsvolta619]

At least you don't have 6 grand on a credit card

[wutevahung]

i actaully do, but fortunally, something wrong with my PP account so i cant cash in directly ahha

[Harv72b]

Link.

Seriously.

You may be the best technical poker player in the history of the game. But if you can't beat yourself, you'll never beat poker.

[wutevahung]

thanks for the link.

agree with the statement. that is why i said i m a bad poker player. blah.