The bad side of it all...

You need to sleep off whatever you've been drinking. Just remember you live in the land of opportunity and not some crappy third world hellhole. There's always hope here.

[Alobar]

so then quit being a [censored] pussy, take your damn meds, make some money the old fashion way and snap out of it.

Dont cop out into the whole "I cant stop myself from doing what I knoew is wrong" lame ass excuse and just [censored] do what it is you know you should be doing.

[Lazymeatball]

[imitation]

I'll go into my local street where I live, in China, and take some photos of people who live next to an area which smells like an open sewer, and are sorting through garbage for there next meal whilst folding pieces of paper they find so they can pedal it 30km to sell for about $1USD. Your life is a luxury. Get over yourself.

My life is a luxury?? I love it, you made me laugh.

All of my normal income has come to paying off delinquent bills ran up by my ex. Hence, in turn I borrow money off my family to try to make it the way I know best. It's not enough - I need more - but now I know the only way I'm getting more than $100 is to steal.

I'm not a thief, and frankly I'm quite unsatisfied with my life. I lost the love of my life, my house, my car, and most of my family in a [censored] year.

What the hell would you do? I've explored every damn alternative, there is no escaping the hole I'm in, other than to make a big score. It's not like I don't work a job and I'm some vagrant, the money just doesn't satisfy all I'm now responsible for because of the choices I made for my former female companionship.

I guess the question is, do I try to make the big score thieving, or just blow my brains out now?

I could take enough to win enough to get myself out of the hole to where life would be manageable. Even working 60+ hours a week the last two months, I'm just scratching the surface of what my ex rang up on us.

So it's either A) stoop and become a thief and take 5 bills and hope to make around $1800 in the next week, - B) get them to take me to the doctor because the stress has obviously made me insane - C) Shoot myself in the head - or D) Do nothing but work, make myself worse and post more messages to a bunch of folks who could give a [censored] what I really do.

What would you do?

[chuddo]

file for bankruptcy. go to a third world country (i suggest somewhere in africa) and spend a year or so doing nothing but helping people way less fortunate than you.

teach some poor kids how to speak english, read, and do basic math.

if you are too self-censored to even consider something like this, then by all means so long nice to know you.

i have always considered suicide to be one of the most selfish and cowardly things possible.

[gmrankin]

[WackityWhiz]

ever jerk it to your avatar?

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file for bankruptcy. go to a third world country (i suggest somewhere in africa) and spend a year or so doing nothing but helping people way less fortunate than you.

teach some poor kids how to speak english, read, and do basic math.

if you are too self-censored to even consider something like this, then by all means so long nice to know you.

i have always considered suicide to be one of the most selfish and cowardly things possible.

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My job is helping the handicapped. I'm a wheelchair coordinator for Spirit Airlines, my only job is to help those less fortunate than me to travel. Help them get checked in, get on their planes, or get off the plane, get their baggage and get to their loved ones.

It's not a question of moral fiber. It's a question of having before, and not having now with more responsibilities than I should have because of an idiot former companion.

I don't even care that she's gone, I care that I'm actually contemplating thieving to make my life somewhat normal again.

I do appreciate the response even though it may seem that I'm bitter towards it. I just needed people to talk to. I'm just having a really hard time coping with everything that has been shoveled into my lap.

[ZeeJustin]

Your life probably sucks right now, and I know exactly what it's like to be unbearable, but I can't see how you are in a position where suicide is the best option.

I know exactly what you are going through. For very different reasons, I was very close to ending my life a couple of times back in 7th grade. Looking back, I am unbelievably fortunate that I decided not to end things. My life is amazing now, and it's absurd to me when I think about how close I was to ending it all.

Maybe the next week of your life will suck. Maybe the next month will suck. Maybe the next year will suck. Maybe the next couple of years will suck. Maybe.

If you end your life, that's it for your existence on earth. You will be no more. All that joy that you could have experienced in the rest of your life will no longer have a chance. Maybe you will fall in love. Maybe you will have kids. Maybe you will find some meaning for your life. There is no maybe if you end it all tonight.

Through my depression, my biggest regret was not talking to anyone. I had a few real close friends, and my parents were very loving and supportive, but I was always too afraid to bring it up with them. There was a lot they could have done to help, from emotional support to doctors to drugs. I never gave them a chance to help out, and I almost screwed things up for myself by doing that. I am just very fortunate to be here today despite my stupid actions (or lack there of) in the past. I hope that you will make the right decision, and you will be here too, for decisions other than luck.

Stealing and poker are probably not the answers for you. Talk to your mom. Talk to your other family / friends. See what they recommend. There are always other options. They're not always fun, especially at the start, but they are options none the less.

-Don't do it
-Justin Bonomo