The calling stations in our life.....

[jskills]

Well said - especially that last line.

It sounds like you have your head on pretty straight. That's about the best thing you can do in life anyway. A good number of people are pretty conflicted, confused, or self-destructive in one way or another. You're ahead of the game.

And some people will NEVER understand poker and some the concepts that make every session +EV regardless of the outcome. You can throw every book you want at them, it's not going to do any good unless they "get it".