I check behind flop and get blasted

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Hand 1: I call. Flop check is good IMO.

hand 2: I think I like calling more than raising. Then calling again on the river- yes there are cards that kill the action (spades/clubs/K,Q,J), but villan may already have a FH. I think I am too lame to fold this, so I lose my money here.

hope it worked out for you.