Retooling (kinda long)

[jakethebake]

I don’t know about anyone else, but I go through this periodically. I’m in a funk and I’m not completely sure why. When I look at my life, I think yea, yea I’m really doing pretty much what I want to do. But I’m not doing any of it as well as I could or should be. Like Mitch Robbins said, “I’m not going to find a different job. I’m just going to do this one better.”

So anyway things like this seem to work better if you write them down someplace so here it is. This is not in order of priority.

1. My health-related activities have been irregular over the past year or so. I run and work out inconsistently, which is less than what I’ve been used to in the past. I’m not in bad shape, but not exactly where I want to be either. I’m usually a lot happier when my body works the way I want it to.

2. Do my job better. Part of it is all the time I spend on 00T so I’ll be cutting way back on my posting frequency, something that will make some of you very happy. I also just haven’t been getting things done because I haven’t really taken the time to make myself care to. I’m changing that.

3. I really like playing that unmentioned game at least a few of us here play. I quit playing limit awhile back because I really enjoyed no-limit and found out I was terrible at both when I switched back and forth. But I’ve decided I want to be more serious about this and I think it’s time for a change so I’m thinking of making that switch again. I’ll probably be spending quite a bit more time in the strategy forums. I actually lurk there now. But I may even post there occasionally.

4. I’m going to be a better person to my friends. I’ve been pretty selfish. As an example, last night I was talking to someone and realized I was doing something that’s not very nice. I’ve been saying things to people, mostly just making very unfunny jokes, w/o considering that the jokes themselves were about things that are pretty annoying. Actually the joke was described as “unnecessary” and it was. This was a bad habit I was in years ago. I had broken myself of it at one point, but started doing it again awhile back and I’m not sure why.

5. Cut back on my drinking. I'm convinced part of my current funk is caused by drinking too much. And the drinking to much has been caused by the funk. I haven't been drinking a lot, but it has been frequent. It's anaesthetic quality is attractive, but it just temporarily treats the symptoms and when I drink too much, I just make an ass of myself. I do that enough w/o the alcohol.

6. Last but not least is definitely my kids. I’m a good dad, but I want to be better. I’ll spend more time with them. I’ll do more things with them. I’ll find more patience and be more consistent.

I think if I focus on just those few things, I’ll be much happier and make other people happier too.