Ever just play like a retard?

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I generally make very good laydowns when I know Im beat but not tonight
All games 9 handed

1/2 NL

CO is a bluffing maniac

I have 22
4 to the flop

Flop 2 8 10 rainbow
I normally bet here but this time check
Turn King- second club
Checked to me I bet pot 2 callers
River 7c

BB checks maniac bets 69 into 40 dollar pot
Im on the phone with my friend and say I don't like having the BB still in the hand i should fold. I call.
BB goes all in for 40 more ([censored] he has the flush!)
Maniac calls

I decide I will go all in for 100 more since I'm losing the main pot, but will break even with the side pot- wrong
BB had straight maniac has flush

200 in the trash

Then I get AA

Raise to 12 55 dollar stack calls on CO BB calls
Flop 5 10 10
I tell myself way ahead way behind keep it small
basically if the short stack has trips he can suck my dick Ill pay him off
BB checks I check short stack goes all in BB calls ( ding ding ding why the hell would he call i wonder what he has)
I call ( nice donkey)
Turn he goes all in I call
He has ace 10

200 more in trash

Then we go to 2/4
I raise on CO with AJ d to 22
One caller
10 a j 2 clubs flop

He leads for 40 I make it 120 ( so far so good)
he goes all in for 318 more
Well I beat Ak which he doesnt have, a flush draw ( barely if he has a gutshot) and 10 j
I also beat a bluff which is isnt making
So finally I make the right decision and fol- call
Good move dick
He has 10 10 and i miss my 4 outer/ backdoor running gutshot split pot and any other miracles you can think of
Thanks god it was a raked hand counting towards a bonus


450 in the trash (although I should have lost the first 142 so I can live with that amount)

Money lost on these 3 hands
850
Money I should have lost
142+11+12=165
Only 685 dollars I didnt need great

Sorry I had to vent
I can't control the cards but I hate donking