Darkness warshed over The Dude...

[coffeecrazy1]

Despite the OOT-ness of the title, this post is in the right place.

I have made a discovery about myself that saddens me: I don't know if I'll ever be a good poker player. I have read all of the books, know most of the strategy, but I just don't have the edge.

This is not the voice of tilt talking. I love playing. It makes me happy(in a global sense, not from individual sessions).

But, I think it's going to always have to be just a hobby for me. In the back of my mind, I think I always thought how neat it would be to be a professional. It wasn't like I was trying to go pro, but I think that I believed that I had the raw talent, and it would just be a matter of whether or not the opportunity would present itself.

Sadly, I now think that I was mistaken, and was a fool to ever believe anything other than I know just enough to get myself into trouble at the table.

This is not an "I quit" post. I'll still be around...but coming out of a fantasy, no matter how big or small, is always a little painful.