Dear bison... June 2005.

[SmileyEH]

Dear Bison,

I'm in love with one of my best friends. She knows this but has been in a serious relationship for the last year. Last week we had dinner and a few drinks at my apartment and eventually hooked up (did not have sex). Neither of us were drunk (we agreed on this later). Although she said that although things aren't going well with her boyfriend (he's in Europe right now) she is going to stay with him out of a sense of loyaly and trying to make things work. She has told me she loves me and doesn't want to lose me as one of her best friends despite what happened.

Right now our relationship is in a weird spot obviously. Should I continue to hang out with her regularly and feel continuous angst or try to cut her out of my life? We have a great time when we are together and I think she feels the same way, but I'm not sure if its worth it for the rejection I implicitly feel.

-SmileyEH