the psychology of losing

[vkotlyar]

Hello all. I have been playing cards for a living for a few years now. I am a consistent winner and do very well for myself. Many people consider me to be the best player around, and i have been making peoples lives a living hell on the poker table. However, i have a weakness which i cannot seem to overcome. I have losing. Now let me explain. Its not that i hate losing money, because i know that in the long run, these people are paying my rent. I can never have a losing year for as long as i play. Losing is a natural part of the game, and every1 experiences it. However, it ruins my mood, it messes up my sleep, and it influences my interactions with my friends and family. After a losing session, my sleep is fragmented and i am irritable. I hate the world and really feel depressed. I feel this way a lot more when i multitable the party 10 games, and every time i have a losing session, i feel...almost sad. I dont think that its even worth playing if i am going to feel this way. My feelings arent as extreme when i lose in a live game, but i am still really bogged down about it. I can win 20 sessions in a row, and then take a 500 loss, and ill be devastated. How can i lose to these people? Does any1 else feel like this? Any ideas? thank
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