Morbidly Depressed

[SpearsBritney]

I usually try very hard to keep myself from bringing down the rest of society with my miserable attitude towards life. But sometimes I just can't help myself. I don't know why I feel so strongly about letting everyone around me know just how miserable I have become, but the urge is sometimes overwhelming. I guess what they say is true. Misery loves company. Or perhaps I am subconsciously hoping that someone might actually come up with a valid reason to continue existing. Or maybe I am just seeking attention. Who knows. The fact remains, LIFE SUCKS! It just doesn't seem worth it anymore. All the struggling, the striving, the searching for happiness and salvation that I ultimately realize does not exist. I feel like we have all been duped. That our lives don't actually belong to us, but instead to governments, corporations, and the elite. Suckered into an existance that is only about exploiting us for our uncanny ability to believe that if we work hard enough, one day happiness will be ours. Well, I don't buy it anymore. I have seen just about enough. The very same thing that gives you pleasure, will inevitably come around and bite you in the ass with it's equal and opposite share of pain, and that just doesn't seem worth it to me anymore. I would rather just not exist instead. Unfortunately I lack the courage to end this futile charade, and sometimes even foolishly convince myself that life is worth living, but it's only a matter of time before I once again realize the truth. We are told that life is a gift, but this is B.S. Another lie. Life is a burdon. A never-ending battle. We are all slaves traped within the confines of our own fearful minds. The only true salvation is death.