Getting back on the horse

[Frills]

The last few times I've played live I went broke both times.

The first was because I was ignorant, and made a horrible call, I have since learnt the pot odds.

The last time, it was a horrible bad beat, something about a gutshot hitting the river against my rockets when I bet the pot every street.

I haven't played live since, I know I'm 10x better now than I was then, but still haven't been able to bring myself to go back.

Any Suggestions?