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I think those feelings are way more common than you know. But that doesn't mean they're easy or fun to handle.

Talking to a mental health counselor is probably a good idea. Taking charge of your problems in this way is much better than just drifting along and hoping one day they'll somehow clear up. Your post here looks like a step in that direction.

Instead of trying to reinvent the wheel on health and happiness all by yourself, let a mental health professional contribute their expertise and help carry some of that weight. Not all of them will be the right one for you, but you should be able to find a match even if the first one doesn't seem to click with you.

Your honesty in acknowledging the things that are bothering you is itself a very important step in working toward making them better, and will be a big help to your counselor, too. Keep on taking the initiative.