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Sounds good to me. If it seems to be working then keep doing it I'd say...
I'm 38 now and went through a major depression spell from age 29 to 32. In a nutshell my problem was that society was pushing me to go in directions I didn't want to go, and I didn't know why. Making money was always easy (in terms of intellectual challenge, not necessarily energy output), but it always seemed like the wrong things were being rewarded. Basically to make decent money you had to either be a whore or sell your soul to the devil in some metaphorical way.
Then I stumbled on the Unabomber's Manifesto
http://www.thecourier.com/manifest.htm
It made me realize that you COULD reject everything modern society stands for, and still be an intelligent, valuable human being.
After a great deal of reflection, long discussions with friends, good and bad relationships with various women, I have finally reached a point where I can confidently represent the anti-society side and am able to articulate noble goals for myself and family.
I don't know if the same road is right for you, but just in case I thought I'd share my story and the UM.
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I'd just like to say that I can't believe I've read through most of this already. But I thought this was interesting/relating to poker:
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41. For many if not most people, surrogate activities are less satisfying than the pursuit of real goals ( that is, goals that people would want to attain even if their need for the power process were already fulfilled). One indication of this is the fact that, in many or most cases, people who are deeply involved in surrogate activities are never satisfied, never at rest. Thus the money-maker constantly strives for more and more wealth. The scientist no sooner solves one problem than he moves on to the next. The long-distance runner drives himself to run always farther and faster. Many people who pursue surrogate activities will say that they get far more fulfillment from these activities than they do from the "mundane" business of satisfying their biological needs, but that it is because in our society the effort needed to satisfy the biological needs has been reduced to triviality. More importantly, in our society people do not satisfy their biological needs AUTONOMOUSLY but by functioning as parts of an immense social machine. In contrast, people generally have a great deal of autonomy in pursuing their surrogate activities.
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