[Qwijibo]

I think you're an American hero. That being said, you've provided a great service for those in need. You're not a bad person for wanting a life of your own, and poker provides that life. You're not risking the bill money, and as long as you're a good player, the $400 hits you referred to will even out over the long haul. I think you're feeling guilty because you don't want to be a martyr for the rest of your life. I say, keep up the good work.