[BullChip]

my life sucks. I feel like drinking and smoking myself to death. I don't want to live anymore. I don't have many friends and the ones I do have I barely even know. I'm broke, college drop-out, ugly, lonely, and lack any skills in the real world. I hate going out in public.

I've been thinking about committing suicide for a while now. For years. The only thing that is stopping me is going to hell. But, seriously, I don't even know if I care about that anymore.

I'm posting this on OOT because maybe someone will say something to open my eyes a little wider. Maybe I need attention. Maybe I'm just a loner who seeks friends.

Maybe I'm dead already.