[steamboatin]

with his Smokestack between his legs. No more 10-20 until my game or my attitude (both need work) improve. I am only down 100 Big Bets and that is easily explained away by normal variance and I can afford to play 10-20 but I think I am playing above my emotional bankroll kinda like DR Al talks about. I haven't read the article just picked up a little here and there but the numbers really bother me.

I took a bad beat this afternoon and it really had a significant impact on my attitude. I don't want to tell a bad beat story because no one cares and it doesn't matter because it happens to everyone all the time and I don't want to just blame it all on variance. It would be easy to focus on the bad beats and keep on playing 10-20 because that is what I really want to play but I am just not ready.

I don't think I am being outplayed, but when I take a bad beat at 10-20 it bothers me much more than it should and that is as big a problem as any.

I think I need to retreat and work on my game.