[davet]

I am having a bit of trouble dealing with a sick gambler: me.

I am a prop and I make my living on poker, but now that I am suffering a rediculous down- swing, I am loosing a battle with myself. I don't gamble neg EV games. I am simply under the impression that I am not as good as I would like to think, and that perhaps the pokers gods are out to get me. I know that this is all a wash, but I can't even begin to explain how cold I am right now, and it is not doing good for my mental state.

I read some of the articles in cardplayer magazine and a common theme among all the pros is that they are all self- destructive. I am starting to really see this in myself, and it is literally making me ill to fight this battle.

I would like to know how you all deal with the compulsive gambler inside yourself.