What am I to do?
Hello, all this is my first post, but I have been reading
posts on 2+2 for along time now, so if I come across in the
wrong way forgive me. I am looking for some advice that
only you experienced poker players can offer me, for I am
only 19. Let me begin, I started playing when I was 16
after watching "Rounders" still my favorite movie, by
playing on the internet, for it was the only place to play
at my age, by the time I was 17 I had a fake ID that
allowed me to play at local cardrooms at cosistently made
money, so I quit my job and played low limit poker online
and in real life in all my spare time, all my friends
played poker and were at least 21 so it was a social thing
to do. I felt that I was much better than other players at
pretty much all of the games that I played in so I began
moving up limits and making more money. It was when I was
18 and had just graduated high school that a friend of mine
and me decided to go to the commerce for more than a couple
of days. I stayed there for almost 2 months and played the
20-40 and 40-80 and made what I though was rediculous
amounts of money about $30,000, I was plating about 14
hours a day, after paying for the hotel and other expenses.
I used this money to move out, buy a car and pay to go to
school. This was about 6 months ago. After paying for
everything I was left with about 15,000 and monthly bills,
I had been fluctuating anywhere from 10-20k the last couple
of months while spending also. Everything was going
perfect, actually much better than I ever thought was
possible a few years ago. Then the year 2004 came and
disaster struck. I went on tilt playing heads up 15-30
online and lost 5000, usually this never happens and I
would say that I am a well diciplined player. This was a
devastating blow to my bankroll and left me with about
12000. Then lost 2000 at the local 40-80 the next day,
horrible runs of cards. I decided to stop playing short
handed which are my favorite games to rebuild with less
risk. However I have lost the last 17 of 18 sessions, and
lost heavily, my play has not been bad nor have I gone on
tilt, I simply can not drag a pot I play very tight then
when I get hand it gets drawn out on over and over, I know
that there is short term luck but when I am only winning 3
pots in an 8 hour session, I am starting to wonder. I just
can't win, its like the poker gods are punishing me for
going on tilt a while back. So from the start of the new
year my bankroll had gone from a healthy amount to a mere
2500 and rent is due the 1st sigh. If things arent bad
enough I have to start school on the 2nd and will only be
able play about 40 hours a week, so my question is to all
you experienced players is, had anything like this happened
to you, and if so how did you get of this rut, if I go bust
there would be very serious consequences, and playing the
limits 10-20 and lower just isn't fun anymore, I enjoy
playing with a few good players. If you have any advice,
comments, or anthing to say at all I will be very thankful.
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