[PTjvs]

I have nothing to add other than that I am an idiot luckbox.

I screw & accidently leave 12$ on party when I mean to withdraw it all, so I sit at the BJ table & proceed to bet half of whatever bankroll I have (so I can double & split), figuring I'll either lose this massive sum of cash, or get to a high enough amount it's worth cashing out. This was on Monday, and does not seem like the act of a compulsive gambler to me, even understanding that BJ is a -EV game. In ~2 hours I have $2,150, and I'm convinced that I am a compulsive gambler, betting max etc. when I've never bet anything above the minimum playing -EV casino games before (which isn't too -EV with free drinks =).

I feel that I am not safe having that much money on Party anymore, so I cash out $1,500 & tell myself that I'm only going to use the remaining $650 for poker occasionally, so my account doesn't get closed & I don't lose my 60k party Points. Alas, yesterday, I cannot resist the blackjack, and instead of 3tabling 3/6 6max on Eurobet as I usually do, I sit & play blackjack on Party some more, running it up from $650 to $5,400. I am now convinced I will ruin my life if I don't cash this all out immediately.

I'm not sure if this is a useless brag post, or a desperate cry for help.