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I am making enough money playing poker that I should not have been depressed over the last few months. Yet I was.

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Maybe your just naturally depressed and need some drugs



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One quick hit and I could start a business, and I'd be happy

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Dude, that ain't ever gonna happen in a casino

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We talked for a while and I began to feel better about myself. I wasn't alone.

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Yeah a conversation on AIM could work magic - go out and get some pussy if you feel so alone.


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I'm also thinking of volunteering at the nursing home my mother works at, just a few hours a week, to have an activity where I interact with others.

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Umm? Yeah, if you wanna wash old people or something... Try enrolling at some bullshit college grad courses - maybe once a week - making the objective not grades - but "interacting w/ others" or better yet? get a job, you loser

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Smile to the grocery store cashier as she rings up your food

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Yeah, and think to yourself - that might be me one day - imagine my depression then.


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I feel that everything else will just fall into place.

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Better get over this crap first - good luck!

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You are an idiot. This has nothing to do with feeling alone, it has to do with figuring out where I want my life to go.

I got into grad school, two in fact, but defferred them for a year because I was unsure if that was the direction I wanted to take. I'm not living in a house by myself feeling like my life is worthless. I have two great roomates, great friends from school, and awesome parents who, when I told them I was going to take time off from school and work to play poker for a few months, said "go for it. you are young, now's the time to do it"

I was simply questioning my feelings now versus what I had expected when I graduated.

If you think that volunteering is worthless you are a selfish prick, no offense. When in high school I was forced to volunteer, a Jesuit school graduation requirement, and the experience was great. I worked at a homeless shelter a few times and a nursing home a few times, not washing old people but talking to them for a few minutes when a lot of their family members won't. Sometimes those people remember a five minute conversation for months.

You should try it sometime.

I think you missed the point of the post. This has nothing to do with having no friends and being alone, it was the feeling of "missing" something. Once I opened up to my friend and she said "yeah, it's normal. I feel that way too. A lot of people do", I realized I wasn't alone.

The PM's and great responses I got to this post only support my feelings.

But on a side note, I never understand why people like writing posts to trash other poeple. Like, does it turn you on? Do you go tell your friends how cool you are? Do you sit at the computer and think, oh my god I got him so good?

Just wondering,
Have a nice day.