[Farfenugen]

My story:

I am a 23 year old college student from the Kansas City area. I have read WLLHE, SSHE, and HEFAP and I consider myself a pretty smart and logical person. This last summer I decided to really start playing 3/6 W/kill Hold'em at the local Ameristar casino. I had a 2700 bankroll saved up and I had read SSHE several times. I felt confident that I would succeed in the game. By mid-July the entire bankroll was gone. I had lost it all. I felt I had played very well during this time so this was obviously quite frustrating for me. Over this period I continued to read SSHE and while I did identify some concepts that I was mis-applying, overall I played some quality poker. I was devastated at the time. It is very hard to get me to tilt so I knew it wasn't a problem.

Not knowing what to do I decided to read some articles on what to do while running bad. Most of them advised on taking a break from poker. I knew this was a ridiculous but I was so desperate at the time I figured what the hell. If you are playing winning poker no matter how bad you have run in the past you should stay in the game. I took a break from B&M poker until just this weekend.

I played Friday and Saturday night. I figured this would be a great way to start again as there is a ton of action at the 3/6 tables on weekends. I lost 500.

I am at a point where I don't know what to do. I love the game and I will never stop playing but I am also extremely unhappy with the way things are going. I am taking some horrendous beats every session.

I know this sounds like every other schmucks bad beat story. I guess that is the most difficult thing about all this. I don't feel like I have anyone to talk about this to who will have any understanding or sympathy. Many of you are probably thinking that I am too ignorant and arrogant to realize the gigantic holes in my game. Or maybe you think I am tilting away all my money. This may be the case, the mind has a way of fooling itself. That said, I truly believe in my heart and in my head that I am playing correct, disciplined poker.

I am starting to wonder whether I am a statistical outlier in the poker world. The chances are slim but so are getting hit in the head by a meteor and that has happened.

If you read all that I'm sorry, but I just had to get that all out there. Flame away or make snide comments if you want, but I just couldn't keep it inside any longer.

You are probably wondering by now what I need help with. Well, I would like someone who is very good at small stakes hold'em to review a list of my hands to find any holes in my game and give me advice. I plan on sitting at the table with a notebook and logging every single hand I play then copying it to MS word. I know this is -EV to do this but I don't know what else to do. I'm desperate.

I will gladly pay the person that accepts $50 transfered to their Poker Stars account.