i definitely feel how you feel. although i didn't lose 40k. i lost my entire bankroll last night at party. i had 2.2k, made it from $300 playing 1-2 and 2-4 for a month. and in one night, i blew it all playing party poker's bj. and its fuked up how u can't get the option to get 'even money' when you hit blackjack and the dealer shows an ace. but yeah, i guess we are learning it the hard way. now that we lost the money, at least don't lose the lesson of no more online bj. i am now going to have to rebuild my bankroll from scratch now..errr...best of luck