How to Win and Lose 40k in two weeks.

I wasn't going to share this, but I think its very important that I do so that other people can avoid what I did.

So I regularly multitable the 30/60 on party, with a dabble of 50/100 in there for good measure. After taking a 4 month break due to work and personal commitments, I played at the 30/60, I typically super multitable and in just playing the evenings and weekends since I work all day, in about a week I made about 40k. I'd never gone up an upswing that much or that quickly ever.

And then something really horrible happened, just for fun being in a gambling spirit I played blackjack on party. $200 a hand . . At first it was harmless and I was going a little up and little down (and playing perfect basic strategy) till suddenly I was down 2k and was like . . Crap, I lost 2k in 30 minutes . . What was going through my head was, man it'll take a lot longer getting that 2k back in poker, I better keep going . . The next thing I knew I was 10k in the hole . . And in due time . . I lost it all on blackjack. Don't ask me how, but I lost 40k playing blackjack on party poker. I'm such an idiot, I never really thought I had a 'blackjack problem' but apprently I do because I couldn’t stop … I was trying to get out of this stupid hole. I haven't been able to get it out of my head, that monye would have done wonders and I'm basically going to be starting from scratch. I've been trying to make myself feel better by telling myself that it was all money that I had won and like it never happened, but I can't get it out of my head. Yes I know, moronic. Either way, blackjack has been removed from party so I don't even have the temptation. But I've been asking myself If I do have some sort of problem. It was never like this before, but I of course didn’t' have instant access to blackjack before either.

Guys, I know a lot of people have already said this but seriously, stay away from blackjack. Erase the image files!