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i don't know why i am the way i am.

my main reason for wanting to get in shape is health reasons more than anything. i just feel like my body sucks, and i am getting more health problems lately so exercise might help make my body like me better. plus i have a bad back, and just a wimp in general, and of course i don't like seeing my stomach get flabby. i just want to start doing something about it. it's not really to try to get sexy to impress people or anything like that.

as far as my weirdness goes, i don't really see it relating to me wanting to get healthier (other than making me not want to go to a gym - but a lot of people don't want to go to gyms for various reasons). i have no desire to be someone who goes out and has a lot of friends, it's just not me. it might be a boring life but i guess i like it that way. i wish i was normal sometimes just to avoid having to explain to people why i don't want to do things, but not for the sake of actually doing them. well maybe, it depends.