[FreakDaddy]

I'm saying this as a thoughtful recommendation (hopefully it comes off that way). I'd ask yourself what are you so scared of? This is purely psycholgical at this point. Everyone knows scared money = dead money. Is there some aspect of your game you're not confident in? Work on it. Play smaller stakes. I mean, if you're enjoying how you're playing, then go with it, have fun, but from your post it doesn't sound like you're having fun. You sound overly timid and scared.