1. You have serious mental health issues.

2. You have inadequate support infrastructure if the stopgap between you and a .44 mag bullet in the grape is an anonymous poker chat board

3. Your financial problems really arent that big of a deal

4. Your self-pity is wretched. Get over yourself. But if you do decide to end it all, just make sure you dont take anybody with you, and remember to set down some plastic tarp so you dont ruin the rug.