[Al Schoonmaker]

There is a huge inconsistency in your post. You state: "despite playing what I think is the best poker of my life. It almost seems personal, as if life is trying to tell me to quit playing."

You then describe your state of mind.

It is EXTREMELY unlikely that you are "playing the best poker of your life" in that state of mind. People who feel that they are "innocent victims" don't play their best. In fact, they probably play poorly.

Some people have expressed doubts about your ability to play as a full time pro. I share those doubts.

If you can't handle swings, the life of the full time pro is not a good choice.

Regards,

Al