[AceofSpades]

It sounds like you are depressed and using poker as an alternative to your meds. I've had somewhat of the same situation, (never been diagnosed as having depression, but I've wondered if I had it many times) though I've never had meds of any kind, so I understand where you are coming from. Those feelings of just staying in, not really having the desire to do anything except be alone and play poker, read, sleep, etc. I'd really recommend to try going back on the meds for a little while and see how you feel. Of course parties can be pretty dumb sometimes so maybe you just burned out on them, what about other activities that you used to enjoy, do you still do them, enjoy them as much?