It's ironic, after the thread I posted yesterday and everyone replying that I didn't a have a good enough bankroll to play the 4/8, warning me that I'd bust out with a significant downswing that was bound to come. That downswing came and I did in fact bustout. It was the combination of two things, not playing my A game but my C- game combined with a night long dryspell of few playable
cards and terrible flops. I got that empty feeling you get when you bustout, felt like I never wanted to play cards again, even threw my poker book I brought along in the trash. I spent the trainride home thinking about how my dreams were dead, I'd never be a good enough poker player, how those first three days of great playing meant nothing if I was just going to lose it all back.

I woke up the next morning with a whole lot more perspective . I don't want to quit playing poker. I love playing too much. But my confidence and enthusiasm have taken major hits. Maybe I was getting overconfident, I was convinced I was now too good player to bust out.

So what now? I'm trying to figure out what to do now. I don't want to take another long break from poker. Maybe I should focus on online poker until I have a big enough bankroll to play the 4/8. Maybe I should start to build my way back up playing sit&go's, smaller ring games (not offered at my casino only online), and a tournament or two with a small buyin fee.