Listen to advice of some of the posters around here, its really helpfull and sums up a lot of the lessons i have learned over the past few years where it has been a rocky ride for me (still is, but its going somewhere good now). Especially the 'squirrl'story and the stuff about cleaning up your act drinking-excersising wise. Hope you can find a rope somewhere (being a goal you set) to pull yourself out of this crap.

On a sidenote, wether bullchip is serious or not about actually comitting suicide, im disgusted by a LOT of the posters in this thread who think its all one big [censored] joke, or like to feel smart about themselves 'by calling the bluff'. You're retards, thank you for making the world a lil' more beautiful place to be