[steamboatin]

I find it terribly difficult to determine if I am playing good or just running good while I am in the moment. Hindsight has 20/20 vision so I can look back later and it is much easier to see that I played well or just ran good but it is really difficult to know when your play has deteriorated.

March and April I was on a terrible losing streak and I was firmly convinced it was variance. Late in April, I bought "Improve Your Poker" and the second or third chapter made it clear that I had been playing bad and maybe a little of it was variance but mostly poor play.

Last Friday, I played 4-8 at Belterra and I was playing terribly. Not just less than perfect but really really bad. I figure it out about halfway through the session and only ended up down $44 but for the first few hours, I sucked at poker. Now in hindsight, I was really angry at the MRS and I probably shouldn't have been playing at all.

Sunday, I was in a really soft 10-20 game at Caesar's IN and I ran good. Does that make me the Jedi Poker Master? I think I just sucked less than the other players and had some good hands hold up.

This is kind of a rambling post but I think what I am trying to say is, Damn it is hard to be objective about your own game. Especially in the moment. Later it is easier to see where you went wrong or where you played well.