[darydarling]

I appreciate all the responses.
I know this is something I probably can only work out myself but there are some good suggestions here that I think I will look into.
A bunch of stuff is just coming down and it really just seemed to be hitting hard yesterday.
I emailed a couple of friends of mine discussing some of these issues as the guilt is not the only one...I am currently doing something I no longer wish to do, another one of those jobs that I only work in to make sure I can provide.
Anyway they are working very hard to help me with a career change doing something I am very interested in and things are looking up.
It felt good to finally get this off of my chest and thanks Shannon for your friendship, and the advice you have had to offer.
Cary