[bholdr]

It's commendable that you've recognized that you have a problem and are taking steps to improve yourself. Keep in mind that in the grand scheme of things, there are much worse addictions than gambling that a person can fall victim too, and there are many others with the same problem. It doesn't mean that you're a bad person, etc..

if your friends honestly care about you, they will help and support you through what is likely to be a difficult time.

gamblers annonomous is appearently your best option at this point, they have helped many people with the same problems as yourself. Hopefully you will be able to use your experiences as motivation to solve this and other problems in your life.

good luck, and don't gamble anymore (but you knew that).