Playing with sizable money feels stressfull sometime
Like lots here, I'm a young college student and I messed around last summer with online poker and slowly but surely turned my original deposit of $50 into around $7000 now and I play 5/10 and 10/20. The money i use to play poker is just from that original deposit and i dont use it to buy anything, i just keep funding poker.
The problem is that I play for pots that are pretty big in relation to what the 20 year old has in terms of money. Winning and losing pots of 100 or 200 is more than the average 20 year old student even sees in a week if they work part time. So even though I'm bankrolled to play these limits, I'm always feeling stressed out when I play. A lot of the time I realize I'm holding my breath and i have to make a conscious effort to take full breaths.
I dont really know if any of this makes sense because I dont think i'm playing scared, it's just all that money is way more than I feel i deserve.
I would appreciate comments. Thank you.
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