Your type A beliefs and behaviors are exactly what you need at this point because if you don't have at least $4,000 to play 10-20, you don't really have a bankroll. So keep running your Type A beliefs and behaviors in this area of your life until you get a bankroll.


Work and save up to a $1000 bankroll and play 5-10. Since this is not a safe capitalization for this limit, don't be shocked if you get broke a few times. This is tuition money. Keep learning. Persevere. Eventually you will get a streak that will put you over the hump. And by playing at stakes where your opponents have at least some skill (which will result in you thinking and playing at a more sophisticated level than if you did grinding against those 1-2 players), you'll be more ready.


Do not waste your time down at those very low limits. First of all, the rake there is next to impossible to beat. And because the stakes are so low, your opponents are playing at such a low level also. Thus, you're bound to learn and groove the wrong playing habits.


While you're saving, read, read, and read some more. Keep visiting these forums and learn as much as you can from the debates and interchanges.


Your Type A beliefs, habits, behaviors, and urges have a positive intention for you. And they're trying to send you a message. It seems to me that their message is: Don't waste your time playing limits that are inconsequential. Play at limits where you will be challenged. JMO