well guys i can't handle it anymore.


i know poker is supposed to be fun and all but i almost feel like its consuming me. i read my poker books nearly as much as i read my school books. i'm going to the casino or clicking on the truepoker server instead of studying like i should, my grades are starting to falter.


but thats not really whats bothering me. whats bothering me is the fact that poker seems to have become what dictates whether i'm having a good day or a bad day. if i'm running good i'm on top of the world, but other days when the cards aren't coming and i'm taking bad beats or whatever, i just get so agitated that i feel angry for quite some time afterward.


i suppose i'm just not cut out for this game. i think one quality i lack is the ability to not let bad days get to me. but they do. they affect me more than i'd like to divulge. even more so when its not a bad day but a bad week or whatever.


on the upside, my final stats for live poker are .75BB/hr (at 3-6) and on TP i'm up 855$. but the state of mind i enter when i'm running bad is not worth these small profit margins.


my parents think that i have become a borderline "gambling" addict. i try to tell them its not gambling, but in reality i think its safe to say LL hold'em has quite a large degree of "gambling" in it (though i believe skill wins over time).


if i ever play again it will be totally for the thrill of it, if i sit in your game i'll be the extremely loose-aggressive guy giving away his money, or running the table (if i'm getting lucky [img]/images/smile.gif[/img] lol).


so, after a year and a half of play i'm announcing my "retirement" from my poker career (if you can call it that [img]/images/smile.gif[/img] ). thanks for all the advice guys and good luck to all of you. i'm going to try and get back to what i'm supposed to be doing at this school.


adios.