FeliciaLee
12-18-2005, 02:06 PM
Okay, I know most of you couldn't care less. But for the one or two percent who have wondered what the heck is going on with me, and how I'm doing, I'll try to give a little update.
First off, I had to quit chemo halfway through. My veins collapsed and my labs were off the chart (one nurse said to me, jokingly, "I've seen dead people with better labs than yours!"). I would have had to have a little surgery in order to continue, at great risk of infection, and since my labs were so low anyway, the oncologist said I was getting close to the point where recurrance was equal to the risk of death by continuing. Some people were not meant for chemo, and I guess I'm one of them.
At any rate, since I took the most aggressive course of treatment from the beginning (bilateral radical mastectomies), I am considered "cancer-free" unless they find some stray cancer cells in the future.
Okay, so how did this effect my poker playing? Horribly. Which is one of the reasons I asked Beset to co-moderate both forums with me (Thanks, Beset!).
In fact, it is so painful to talk about, that I'd rather you read it yourself on my journal. There are no ads on my journal, I have no commercial interest in getting you there, I simply don't want to type it again, or even copy & paste.
http://felicialee.blogspot.com/2005/12/poker-realizations.html
It took me months to finally admit this. And then, when I did, I naturally started getting better, lol. I think some of the problem may have been the loss of capacity at sea. It is well documented that our capacity is severely limited while on a ship at sea (mostly this has to do with physical labor, as well as mental process, but it is a factor nevertheless).
So in the past week, I've slowly started coming around. Dyslexia-like symptoms seem to be fading. My passion for poker seems to be slowly returning. While I'm not ready to make a statement that "I'm back," I do think that my mental ability to play decent, rockish, nutpeddling poker might return, lol. /images/graemlins/wink.gif
In fact, Glenn and I are thinking about heading over to Tunica next month for some juicy cash games and I might even enter a tourney, due to the massive amount of chips we're given and the great structure.
http://felicialee.blogspot.com/2005/12/going-back-on-my-word-again.html
So that is where I stand right now. If you read my latest rant on how all-HE, all the time is hurting poker (in general), you'll see I'm back to my normal, incensed, nail-on-a-chalkboard grating self, haha.
I hope this means good things for the future! /images/graemlins/tongue.gif
Thanks for putting up with my update. And for those who didn't read all the way through, or want to find out more details on my journal, I'll close with my standard send off...
Blow me! /images/graemlins/grin.gif
First off, I had to quit chemo halfway through. My veins collapsed and my labs were off the chart (one nurse said to me, jokingly, "I've seen dead people with better labs than yours!"). I would have had to have a little surgery in order to continue, at great risk of infection, and since my labs were so low anyway, the oncologist said I was getting close to the point where recurrance was equal to the risk of death by continuing. Some people were not meant for chemo, and I guess I'm one of them.
At any rate, since I took the most aggressive course of treatment from the beginning (bilateral radical mastectomies), I am considered "cancer-free" unless they find some stray cancer cells in the future.
Okay, so how did this effect my poker playing? Horribly. Which is one of the reasons I asked Beset to co-moderate both forums with me (Thanks, Beset!).
In fact, it is so painful to talk about, that I'd rather you read it yourself on my journal. There are no ads on my journal, I have no commercial interest in getting you there, I simply don't want to type it again, or even copy & paste.
http://felicialee.blogspot.com/2005/12/poker-realizations.html
It took me months to finally admit this. And then, when I did, I naturally started getting better, lol. I think some of the problem may have been the loss of capacity at sea. It is well documented that our capacity is severely limited while on a ship at sea (mostly this has to do with physical labor, as well as mental process, but it is a factor nevertheless).
So in the past week, I've slowly started coming around. Dyslexia-like symptoms seem to be fading. My passion for poker seems to be slowly returning. While I'm not ready to make a statement that "I'm back," I do think that my mental ability to play decent, rockish, nutpeddling poker might return, lol. /images/graemlins/wink.gif
In fact, Glenn and I are thinking about heading over to Tunica next month for some juicy cash games and I might even enter a tourney, due to the massive amount of chips we're given and the great structure.
http://felicialee.blogspot.com/2005/12/going-back-on-my-word-again.html
So that is where I stand right now. If you read my latest rant on how all-HE, all the time is hurting poker (in general), you'll see I'm back to my normal, incensed, nail-on-a-chalkboard grating self, haha.
I hope this means good things for the future! /images/graemlins/tongue.gif
Thanks for putting up with my update. And for those who didn't read all the way through, or want to find out more details on my journal, I'll close with my standard send off...
Blow me! /images/graemlins/grin.gif