brimstone1
07-10-2005, 06:35 AM
I've been putting off writing this post, because it is the acceptance of defeat, looked down upon on these boards, and generally brushed off with "go have a 1,000,000 buy-in downswing and then come back" type of answers.
But I must be doing something wrong, and I need advice on what to do. Here's my poker sob story:
I started off well:
http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/showflat.php?Cat=&Number=2614098&page=0&view=colla psed&sb=5&o=&fpart=1
I went on to the $22s, did ok for 150 games, until:
http://www.supload.com/free/pictures/22s.JPG
40 games with only 3 ITMs, both 3rd place finishes.
After losing all my profit at $22s (35+ buyins), I moved down to the $11s and wanted to start over, in a way, I figured I had leaks I needed to plug, and I didn't want to "gambool," so I went back to the $11s -- perhaps my hourly win rate was low, but my technical "foundation" means more to me for now. I'm in no hurry, and I'm looking at my poker "career" (as a hobby) in the long term sense, just as we're taught to look at our cards.
As I started playing at the $11s, it felt OK for a short while, and then I noticed I was breaking dead even. I go up 3-4 buyins, I go down 7, go back up to 0, up to 6, down to 3... you get the picture.
I'm breaking even. I'm literally disgusted with myself, as I've been playing "enthusiastically," so to speak, reading books, thinking on hands, making self-evaluations, spending time breaking through physcological barriers, coming to terms with the dreaded "long term," accepting weaknesses, etc, since January of this year.
I posted many of the hands that I got busted with, and more than often I was doing the right thing.
Watched replays of SnGs I won, compared to the ones I lost, nothing different, just got busted, thats it.
Went over all-ins with SnGPT, they seem to be +EV for the most part, so my bubble intuition doesn't seem to be dramatically off either.
But, although nothing has changed in my mind about my bubble play, I've been busting out 4th and 5th more than ever.
My ITM is at 33% After 200 games. Yuck.
(I know the sample size isn't gigantic, but at 200, I should at least be showing a tiny, tiny, miniscule +ROI, even if %1, going up on the profit graph, and not just wabbling around the 0 line, come on).
I thought of getting my HHs reviewed, but I don't have the money for it, and in all fairness, I think the people who PM'd me were asking for reasonable prices.
So, to sum up:
I'm breaking even,
seem to be doing the right "moves",
don't have the money to get my HHs reviewed,
have absolutely no idea in which direction to move next.
What should I do?
How does mentoring work? [Not backing, I have 50x buyins for my level, just mentoring]
How does one qualify to be mentored?
Any advice is welcome at this point, yes, even about buying shoes, if someone must make that sort of joke :P
But I must be doing something wrong, and I need advice on what to do. Here's my poker sob story:
I started off well:
http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/showflat.php?Cat=&Number=2614098&page=0&view=colla psed&sb=5&o=&fpart=1
I went on to the $22s, did ok for 150 games, until:
http://www.supload.com/free/pictures/22s.JPG
40 games with only 3 ITMs, both 3rd place finishes.
After losing all my profit at $22s (35+ buyins), I moved down to the $11s and wanted to start over, in a way, I figured I had leaks I needed to plug, and I didn't want to "gambool," so I went back to the $11s -- perhaps my hourly win rate was low, but my technical "foundation" means more to me for now. I'm in no hurry, and I'm looking at my poker "career" (as a hobby) in the long term sense, just as we're taught to look at our cards.
As I started playing at the $11s, it felt OK for a short while, and then I noticed I was breaking dead even. I go up 3-4 buyins, I go down 7, go back up to 0, up to 6, down to 3... you get the picture.
I'm breaking even. I'm literally disgusted with myself, as I've been playing "enthusiastically," so to speak, reading books, thinking on hands, making self-evaluations, spending time breaking through physcological barriers, coming to terms with the dreaded "long term," accepting weaknesses, etc, since January of this year.
I posted many of the hands that I got busted with, and more than often I was doing the right thing.
Watched replays of SnGs I won, compared to the ones I lost, nothing different, just got busted, thats it.
Went over all-ins with SnGPT, they seem to be +EV for the most part, so my bubble intuition doesn't seem to be dramatically off either.
But, although nothing has changed in my mind about my bubble play, I've been busting out 4th and 5th more than ever.
My ITM is at 33% After 200 games. Yuck.
(I know the sample size isn't gigantic, but at 200, I should at least be showing a tiny, tiny, miniscule +ROI, even if %1, going up on the profit graph, and not just wabbling around the 0 line, come on).
I thought of getting my HHs reviewed, but I don't have the money for it, and in all fairness, I think the people who PM'd me were asking for reasonable prices.
So, to sum up:
I'm breaking even,
seem to be doing the right "moves",
don't have the money to get my HHs reviewed,
have absolutely no idea in which direction to move next.
What should I do?
How does mentoring work? [Not backing, I have 50x buyins for my level, just mentoring]
How does one qualify to be mentored?
Any advice is welcome at this point, yes, even about buying shoes, if someone must make that sort of joke :P