nongice626
02-08-2005, 12:12 AM
I know nothing.
I dont think its going to be alright.
I am overly cynical of other people because Im not content.
I cant sleep with someone I dont love.
I dont want to become indifferent and go with the flow. This seems the logical thing to do, but it also seems weak and I am inpatient.
Nothing changes about my physical world. Yet one day I am happy, the next unhappy. When I am happy I claim to understand my world. This is a lie. Ive never understood. I am just a chemical reaction. What a fool I am.
What is this existence? What is the point? If I live a happy life, does that mean anyhting? Is the goal happiness? What is the goal? What is the point? What is this ever lingering feeling in my stomach of cold nothingness.
Why doesnt she love me the way I love her?
And why am I cursed with the knowledge that everyone is the same, that I dont really love her the way I say I love her, and my expectations are unreasonable?
Meh.
I dont think its going to be alright.
I am overly cynical of other people because Im not content.
I cant sleep with someone I dont love.
I dont want to become indifferent and go with the flow. This seems the logical thing to do, but it also seems weak and I am inpatient.
Nothing changes about my physical world. Yet one day I am happy, the next unhappy. When I am happy I claim to understand my world. This is a lie. Ive never understood. I am just a chemical reaction. What a fool I am.
What is this existence? What is the point? If I live a happy life, does that mean anyhting? Is the goal happiness? What is the goal? What is the point? What is this ever lingering feeling in my stomach of cold nothingness.
Why doesnt she love me the way I love her?
And why am I cursed with the knowledge that everyone is the same, that I dont really love her the way I say I love her, and my expectations are unreasonable?
Meh.